Post by dome on Mar 31, 2009 23:11:20 GMT 1
I dont fcking care about what other people think of me, but I cant stand it when someone who is my friend or who I see/saw as a friend starts hating me, chickening out on me or avoiding me. I mean if he doesn't have the balls to say things in my face then wth is going on in this guys head? In the end I will be the one whos helping people off their fucking depressions and what do I gain from it? nothing well good job and thanks for your appreciation but I remain still here mindfucked by the community around me. And I seriously hate it if people start ignoring,avoiding or talk around my back. I gave this guy a chance because I liked him and his attittude and now he pulls shit like this I mean if you have a fucking problem with me then say it to my face and dont whine behind my back and thereby make others depressed as shit.
Thats how I clearly think of this now, sober, just me.
Bleugh bleugh Im under so much pressure well fuck you, atleast I dont give up on it. I mean I swear to god, if I were in his position I'd fight for love or what ever. Im not a hater orsomething but shit like this stresses me out. and now I've been trying to study all day but I cant fucking take it anymore because there's so much shit going on within this community and no this is not your fault. I mean the shit with rodney, Aero's grandma died. The freedom of speech in this game where everyone just clearly can harras someone who he'd like to. And now in the end I am the person who should soothe my team of moderators,friends,GMs because else we wont be able to work together and this happens to many games. And I repeat this is not your fault.
man. As I said Im supossed to be a leader, like Moses.. to be in the voices of people but right now I feel like Im a dictator like saddam fucking hussein. And no thats not damn funny. and I want everyone to realize what is going on between each other, we're starting to get hostile towards each other while we have to work as a team I mean I dont know but we need to grow some fucking balls, thats it and Im not talking to everyone within the team but most of us are ofcourse having problems in our real lives, I understand that but there's a way to avoid this hell and Im sure I can help you out all with this because if I wasn't supossed to be a person who should help you all out I would have been dead, the guy up there would have let me die at the two times I tried to kill myself.
: I can write a book filled with all this bullshit and call it the bible but no one would care to read.. wanna know why? because we're all following the main stream, we're getting divided in box's and thats whats going on in here, people dont care about their lifes anymore and know what the worst is? That I feel like one of the few people with common sense in this world.
And dont tell me Im wrong here
People aren't supossed to be fucking hostile against each other and I challenge you all to stand up for yourselves and stop screwing up your lifes, I know we all have issues here else we wouldn't mind fuck our lifes with the common bullshit that MTV or CNN brings us.
Im here to help people
I mean
I know we're all having social issues, or the most of us that recently play this game like every day and thats fine. but you need to grow a pair of balls and stand up for yourselves because in t his way you wont make it in this world. We're all getting screwed soon by the main stream posers that herd us into a pack and then eat us alive.
and if you need help with that, come up to me and Im willing to help you I dont care.
I will post this on the GM boards to see peoples reactions, and know what will happen most likely? it'll stay dead silent
Its not like Im expressing myself
its what the fuck is going on with the people around me, on here and everywhere in the world. If you live in japan or in mexico it happens everywhere
And trust me, there'll come more of this crap on the boards.
Thats how I clearly think of this now, sober, just me.
Bleugh bleugh Im under so much pressure well fuck you, atleast I dont give up on it. I mean I swear to god, if I were in his position I'd fight for love or what ever. Im not a hater orsomething but shit like this stresses me out. and now I've been trying to study all day but I cant fucking take it anymore because there's so much shit going on within this community and no this is not your fault. I mean the shit with rodney, Aero's grandma died. The freedom of speech in this game where everyone just clearly can harras someone who he'd like to. And now in the end I am the person who should soothe my team of moderators,friends,GMs because else we wont be able to work together and this happens to many games. And I repeat this is not your fault.
man. As I said Im supossed to be a leader, like Moses.. to be in the voices of people but right now I feel like Im a dictator like saddam fucking hussein. And no thats not damn funny. and I want everyone to realize what is going on between each other, we're starting to get hostile towards each other while we have to work as a team I mean I dont know but we need to grow some fucking balls, thats it and Im not talking to everyone within the team but most of us are ofcourse having problems in our real lives, I understand that but there's a way to avoid this hell and Im sure I can help you out all with this because if I wasn't supossed to be a person who should help you all out I would have been dead, the guy up there would have let me die at the two times I tried to kill myself.
: I can write a book filled with all this bullshit and call it the bible but no one would care to read.. wanna know why? because we're all following the main stream, we're getting divided in box's and thats whats going on in here, people dont care about their lifes anymore and know what the worst is? That I feel like one of the few people with common sense in this world.
And dont tell me Im wrong here
People aren't supossed to be fucking hostile against each other and I challenge you all to stand up for yourselves and stop screwing up your lifes, I know we all have issues here else we wouldn't mind fuck our lifes with the common bullshit that MTV or CNN brings us.
Im here to help people
I mean
I know we're all having social issues, or the most of us that recently play this game like every day and thats fine. but you need to grow a pair of balls and stand up for yourselves because in t his way you wont make it in this world. We're all getting screwed soon by the main stream posers that herd us into a pack and then eat us alive.
and if you need help with that, come up to me and Im willing to help you I dont care.
I will post this on the GM boards to see peoples reactions, and know what will happen most likely? it'll stay dead silent
Its not like Im expressing myself
its what the fuck is going on with the people around me, on here and everywhere in the world. If you live in japan or in mexico it happens everywhere
And trust me, there'll come more of this crap on the boards.